Last year I dated a wonderful man who was entirely open to allowing me to truly explore my kinky side. I had been very bi-curious and swinger curious (not sure if that’s a thing) and he was open to all of it. We started a search for a girl as well as a couple. We found 2 separate girls that we had a lot of fun with but the perfect match in a couple always eluded us. We went out with several, it was always up to me if I wanted to make it a go, but every time, one or both parts of the couple were not my type.
During our threesomes I found that I absolutely loved watching him fuck the other women. There was something incredibly hot about seeing him please them, watching them cum because of his cock. There was also something in the denial of it that made me so wet. Mind you, he isn’t a dominant man at all, so it was self imposed denial, but it was ridiculously hot.
Fast forward a year, we both moved to opposite ends of the world which effectively ended our relationship but not our friendship. I still fantasize about the times when I would watch him fuck women and it still makes me just as hot. Next month I am going to visit him with a friend and last night, I told her she was welcome to fuck him while we’re out there as long as I get to watch. She had known about our sexual adventures but she was pretty surprised and asked if I would be jealous. To which I told her absolutely not, it’s actually a huge turn on for me.
I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately but I don’t know anyone who I can really ask, does that make me a cuckquean? Does it make me someone who loves to give sexually to my partner? Is there something wrong with me because I know a lot of people who are fairly kinky but no one who loves to watch their significant other fuck…
I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS!